Bars Don’t Make a Jail a Jail

It’s been a while.  I guess you can see I’ve been hiding out.  Not from anyone in particular or for and political reasons, I just honestly needed to take a break from the outside world.  Some might drink to escape, party hard, or even commit suicide, but I have/am smoking everyday and focusing on the bullshit that we allow ourselves to endure.  Tell me where it’s right that a mother has to starve herself just to feed her children?  And it doesn’t seem to bother her because her mother and mother’s mother went through the same?  In all actuality, I’m tired of hearing there isn’t enough of a budget to take care of shit, because I bet there’s a budget big enough to take care of this so called “war on drugs”.  Let’s be real people, I’m not saying all of this cause I’m angry that they’re trying to keep the black man down.  I’m saying all this and more because they’re trying to keep every man down. 

Everyday I take the time out to look into the eyes of the people surrounding me.  We are all connected and if I see the burden of everyday struggles in one’s eyes, it’s only right for me to want to either give them a hug or pass them a blunt.  It’s sad how the majority of us don’t see the cycle we’re constantly in.  We’re amused at how our pets run in circles and circles and circles, but we don’t see that they’re only imitating what they see.  I can’t think of one person who doesn’t wake up either saying or thinking,”Shit, damn or fuck”.  And there are those who are aware of the constant cycle but are afraid to break loose because of the fear of the unknown.  I haven’t broke out yet, but I’m very much aware that the only way that you can go through this life is knowing that the only thing that really matters is first attending to your needs and those loved by you.

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I Smoke Everyday

I was sitting in my girlfriend’s car and a random thought popped into my head.  Well I wouldn’t say random, because I’m always thinking about weed.  But everyday I try and figure out the backwards approach to the legalization and the illegalization of weed and I always find myself getting angry when I hear or watch a commercial talking about the harmful even fatal effects of cigarettes.  What kind of fucking world do we live in?  Everything that is supposedly good for us is either too damn expensive or illegal or just not in man’s reach.  I don’t want to talk about how 72 millions adult Americans suffer from obesity and every two minutes someone dies from it.

 

Did you know that obesity is second leading cause of preventable death, smoking cigarettes being the first?  Have you ever asked a smoker why couldn’t they just stop smoking?  What do they tell you?  It’s addictive.  You ever heard a pot head say weed is addictive?  If you have an addictive personality, anything can be addicting, but when products are purposely made for addiction to a point where it is causing 157,300 deaths just from lung cancer alone, that is a problem.  And we all know smoking cigarettes causes a lot more issues than lung cancer.  When was the last time you heard of someone dying from smoking marijuana?  I bet never.  A 2001 study suggested that marijuana smoking increases the risk of heart attack in the hour immediately after smoking. But this seems to be the case in no more than one-fifth of 1% of heart attacks — a very rare risk indeed.

 

I truly do appreciate the Above the Influence commercials.  They made me think, analyze the situation and even the commercials.  First, the Office of National Drug Control Policy are the ones that own Above the Influence.  When you go to their website and click on drug facts, marijuana is the first to come up saying that marijuana is the most commonly used illicit drug (I’m saying this in my male announcer’s voice).  But tobacco is no where to be found on the website as a drug, being it is one of the leading causes of death.  The other thing that I realized in the commercials were that they were targeted to teenagers, juveniles.  Why is that?  Were they trying to tell me that as a teenager it’s wrong to smoke weed, but as an adult, it’s fine.  So I looked into that as well.  A new research shows that adults who smoked marijuana before age 15 have significant problems with attention span, impulse control, and “executive function” – the ability to plan and carry out tasks.  So what about the ones who started smoking after 15?  They’re fine.  Because of Above the Influence and this research, it helped answer the question I always had.  At what age should I let my kids start smoking?  Now I know, 16.

 

I could go on and on, on how this government is trying to control us, even in the ways we treat ourselves from sickness (i.e. the amelioration of nausea and vomiting, stimulation of hunger in chemotherapy and AIDS patients, lowered intraocular eye pressure (shown to be effective for treating glaucoma), as well as general analgesic effects (pain reliever) and so on), but what would that do?  If you smoke weed, right on; if you don’t, I ain’t mad at ya.  Everyone does it for their own reasons, but personally, I think it’s time for this big hoopla about marijuana to just end.

 

 

 

 

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What Am I Going To Do?

This is a universal question.  Everyone asks themselves this question at least one time during the day or even a hundred times.  Children ask this question.  Seniors ask this question.  You and I ask this question.  What am I going to do?  What am I to do? We find ourselves drowning in this question instead of using it as a life line.  What am I going to do with these bills?  What am I going to do about a job?  What am I going to do with my out of control teenager, dying parents, marriage that is in the dumps? Have you ever stopped and thought what am I going to do for myself, with myself, to myself?  We get so caught up in everything that we forget about US.  And that sometimes causes us to act out in certain ways that show it.

Ever been so caught up in the what am I going to dos that your main focus is trying to figure out what you’re going to do that the world turns into a huge agitation; and the only way you think you can avoid such agitation is to lash out negatively or try to subdue the problem by subduing yourself with substances such as alcohol, drugs, food, self mutilation, and even death.

There are days where I have no idea what I’m going to do, even if it’s routined.  Wake up, get ready for work, work an 8 hour shift, come home, have dinner, go to bed and do it all over again.  But what I mean by not knowing what to do even through routine is what would I do if something out of the norm were to occur.  What would I do then?  What would you do?

Take for example losing your job.  Thousands of people have experienced this over the past few years.  They woke up in the morning thinking everything is normal, go into work and when you get there, you’re called into the supervisor’s office and there he tells you, “It’s been great having you with our company, but unfortunately, we have to let you go”.  For that split second you think, “What am I going to go?”  Just for that split second.  Now, it’s normal to feel angry, sad, in denial, cry and might even throw a fit, but some people realize that they will get through it.  Everything in life happens for a reason.  But there are those who will dwell on the situation, and dwell and dwell until things might turn drastic.  Emotions arise and they become afraid, anxious, vengeful, jealous or envious where it might cause them to withdrawal themselves or even act out in violence and that we know will never turn out right.

Now, when we get to that point where we do have to ask yourself, “what am I going to do”, ask it with conviction that you already know the answer or the conviction that your Guide already has  the answer waiting for you.  All you have to do is be patient, open hearted and open minded and definitely have a clear conscious.  When you allow yourself that moment of clarity and an open mind, where you let free all of your worries and allow the Universe to speak to your heart, you will always know what you’re going to do.  Your mind is guided by the external, by power, by materials.  Your heart is guided by your God, your Universe, your soul.  And when you let your heart decided the next move, the next step, you will always know what you’re going to do.

 

Namaste.

Parents Gone WILD!

Let’s be real, just cause a woman gave birth, or a man participated in donating his sperm doesn’t make either one of them a parent.  How many cases have we heard of that left our mouths open because a “parent” did something un-parent like?  I know I definitely heard of too many to count and that’s a damn shame.  There are too many things going on in this world, that for one minute, we can’t take a look at things and think, “What the hell is going on?!”

 

First case:

Felicia Rea McClure has been charged for trying to sell her 13-year-old daughter’s virginity for $10,000.  The alleged proposal was discovered by her boyfriend Richard Glazer, who found a series of text messages discussing the deal on her phone.  The man in question has been identified only as being called ‘Don’.

Salt Lake County prosecutor Sim Gill said the woman, 32, had promised ‘Don’ that her daughter would perform sex acts in exchange for $10,000.  The girl told police she initially consented to the arrangement but later changed her mind.  The mother, from Salt Lake City, Utah, also admitted to taking the girl to a Victoria’s Secret store, where she opened the dressing room door for Don to watch the girl model bras and thong underwear.

The Salt Lake Tribune reported she is further accused of sending pictures of the girl wearing lingerie to another man in exchange for cash.  The negotiations for the pictures and the sex acts are alleged to have occurred between April 1 and May 18.  Gill would not discuss details of any investigation of the man known as Don or the other man who received photos of the girl.   He would not comment on whether police have identified those men or whether their ages are known.  Felicia, who is reported to have confessed to police, was charged on the 23rd of April at Utah’s 3rd District Court with two counts of aggravated sex abuse and two counts of sexual exploitation of a minor.

Second case:

Rodney J. McIntyre, had sex with his 17-year-old daughter, stabbed her 15 times and dumped her body in the trash.  McIntyre was arrested on May 21st. He was charged in D.C Superior Court with first-degree murder of his daughter, Ebony Franklin. Assistant U.S. Attorney Jocelyn Ballantine explained that McIntyre’s semen was discovered in his daughter’s body, to a court room filled with friends and family members who cried out before rushing out of the room.

The prosecution based the charges mostly on calls made to and from Franklin’s phone and on her father’s location in proximity to where her body had been discovered.  According to her mother, Franklin left her home, where she lived with her mother and step dad to spend the weekend of November 26 with her father. They were supposed to meet at a local Target. Upon being questioned, McIntyre stated that his daughter decided to spend the weekend with her boyfriend instead. Franklin’s mother reported her missing on November 27 and her body was found on the 28th.

McIntyre used his daughter’s cell phone to make calls and send text messages to her mother and others to blame someone else for her death. In one message, authorities said, McIntyre wrote, “Remember, the bitch told on my man nowyoo get her out the trash.”

McIntyre was questioned several times about his daughter’s death. During one interview, they confronted McIntyre about a possible sexual relationship with his daughter. When asked by detectives if his DNA would be found on the victim, he said, “I don’t know how to explain it” and that he would not admit to a sexual relationship with Franklin to them, only to her mother.  When Franklin’s body was found, it was determined that his semen was inside her for three days. When told this, McIntyre said he had given his daughter a bottle with his semen, which he claims she used in attempts to impregnate herself.  After further probing, McIntyre admitted that he and his daughter had sex on “several occasions,” including the Tuesday before she was stabbed, killed and stuffed in the trash.

I take a deep breathe in every time I read something like this.  This isn’t the first or the last time we’ll hear of such things, but we need to be more aware of what’s going on, especially to the children.  A lot of people will say that it has nothing to do with them, but we can sense when wrong is being done to a child.  And if we do get that feeling, we have to do something.  It’s hard for a child to grow up thinking that there is no protection for them if their parents are doing such crimes.  It just doesn’t make any sense.

 

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This So Called Lifestyle

The ignorance that runs through the blood of some of the people that live in this world humbles me.  The hatred that most put so much time and effort on magnifies the love that I wish these individuals lack for themselves.  When there is hate for another living creature, there is hate within oneself.  You cannot talk about love and equality for all when there is hate and judgment in your heart.  Hatred is created by judgment.  Judgment is lead by fear.  Fear is a shelter with no windows or doors.  You are boxed inside your own narrowed thoughts suffocating from the toxins.  And the only way out is wanting a way out or being forced out.

 

Every time I read an article pertaining to the black LGBT community, I’m either happy with the progression that I see being made or saddened with those who are blinded by their own issues.  The last article I read was State Senator Ruben Diaz’s issued statement responding to New York City’s Mayor Michael Bloomberg’s speech in support of marriage equality.  During his speech, Bloomberg stated,

 

It’s fitting that the gay rights movement began in our City, because New Yorkers have always been at the forefront of movements to expand American freedoms – and guarantee American liberties. Long before our founding fathers wisely decided to separate church from state, leading citizens of our City petitioned their colonial rulers for religious freedom. Long before Lincoln signed the Emancipation Proclamation, many New Yorkers – including the founder of this college, Peter Cooper – crusaded against slavery. Long before the nation adopted the 19th Amendment, New Yorkers helped lead the movement for women’s suffrage. And long before the Civil Rights Act of 1964, New Yorkers played a pivotal role in advancing a color-blind society.

 

Sen. Diaz rejected the comparison between the black struggle for civil rights and the ongoing struggle for marriage equality, calling homosexuality a “lifestyle”.

There is no just comparison between America’s struggle to overcome the evils of slavery and the promotion of the lifestyle of homosexuality. It is preposterous for Mayor Bloomberg to degrade and minimize the plight of African-Americans in this civil rights struggle by equating it with the effort to push to legalize homosexual marriage. […] Black leaders should not allow Mayor Bloomberg or anyone else trivialize their suffering and their history!

There will always be an ongoing debate on whether homosexuality is given or a “lifestyle” that was chosen.  Like or not, any fight for equality is a fight for equality.  Delegate Emmet Burns, during the Maryland House floor debate stated,

“If same-sex marriage is to be equated with the movement that I know, then, if you will, show me your Birmingham, Alabama where high-pressure water hoses were turned on us so powerful that it knocked the bark off trees just because we wanted our right. If you want to compare same-sex marriage with civil rights as I know it, show me those who had their homes invaded by the Ku Klux Klan at night and burned down their homes and businesses and churches and lit fiery crosses on your lawns because of same-sex marriage.

No, but I’ll show you gay men who have been beaten to death, and women raped and murdered and teenagers committing suicide, and businesses and homes that have been burnt down because of their so-called “lifestyle”.

It’s funny how some people who were fighting for what was right are the ones on the other side trying to stop another group of people from fighting for what is right.  Equality.  We will never understand one another until we stop focusing on ourselves.  A Jew will never understand the struggles of a black.  A black will never understand the struggles of someone gay.  Someone gay will never understand the struggles of a prisoner.  Equality isn’t for which group you think deserves it.  Equality is the quality or state of being equal.  Equal is of the same measure, quality, amount, impartial.  Impartial is not partial or biased, treating or affecting all equally.